I've been to two psychics this week and they both gave great advice. A few surprises but mostly spot-on, about things I already knew.
I saw the first psychic while I was with the BF and the second time I went alone.
The first psychic told me that indeed, I could make money off of my photography, that they were that good. Totally shocked and excited me and I talked at length about that with the BF. But now I'm wondering if I actually have it in me to push myself to become a professional photographer, albeit only part-time. At the very least it did motivate me to start taking photos again, cuz ever since we've gotten back from our trip to BC I've kind of stopped taking shots. So, being the passive-aggressive person that I am, while walking home I took some photos while using the largest possible setting in case they turned out so well that I'd want to put them in a portfolio. She also said that my dad is doing the best he can and that it was up to me to drop the past and to move things between us forward, and that it would not be easy. I wonder if I do have it in me to put the past behind. I wanted to ask relationship questions but because the BF was standing right there, I didn't feel comfortable.
So the next day after work I went to the second psychic who told me (while I cried) that it isn't that my mother doesn't like me, it's that they don't understand me. Again, my stepfather gets involved with my relationship with my mother...anyway I think this is something that has plagued me all my life - me wanting people to understand me, to get me. Except for the past few years because the urgency for this kind of absolution has diminished greatly which is really super-swell as it was such a negative existence for me - SO draining. She also said that The Son really likes me, that he's very supportive of me and that he likes how ours is a no-pressure kind of relationship. Fine with me - that's what mom and dad are for. It's starting tos sink in just how friggin' awesome this is because that's what I've always wanted in our relationship - I've wanted him to know that from me he will ALWAYS have a solid, loving, reliable adult who respects him and loves him and just wants to be supportive of him. She also said that I'm in the process of growing and that I'm tired a lot because I'm sorting things out in my dreams. I thought that was amazing because for the first time in years I'm remembering my dreams. Plus I've been incredibly tired lately - like for the last two weeks especially. And she said that the BF and I will be together for many years and that his distance stems from him having chosen to be "laid back" because he has no idea what to do with out relationship. She said to leave him him alone when he's quiet (it's not about me) and that I should introduce more romance. She was right on all accounts but it was a huge relief to hear that we'd be together because I really had no idea, things have been so "ignore the elephant in the room". He's so afraid of confrontation and he shuts down so much that I'm afraid to talk to him. It's frustrating. He's so caring and funny and supportive.
I missed three questions with the second psychic so I'm considering going again.
Afterwards I stopped at the fancy-pancy store and bought two kinds of salsa - one had canned mandarin orange sections in it, chips, Cambizola cheese, sticky toffee cheese, milk and dried mango and walked home. Haven't tried the sticky toffee cheese yet as I'm actually wondering what the eff I was thinking in buying it...
